"There is a threatening power I have, they know I see through them, so they attack me for to the sins of who I was in my becoming. Pointing the finger, 'that's the real you, shame on you!'."
Most if you live under an umbrella. An umbrella of ignorance and comfort. You are totally removed from the goings on dimensionally and all around you. You seem to fall right in, like robots on a track, something I was never comfortable accepting, though I tried many times.
Some of the most lost people would tell me I'm a lost soul. There is a game of switcheroo afoot, where lives destined to be lived are sabotaged and switched. I am one of those people, who is kept alive in to watch my story, my life, my being and my fate blatantly be rewritten and mocked before me.
I never felt lost, I just always saw this world and it's people as such.
My dreams and intentions and drive were directed, and I had the courage to face more than one dark menacing force. But they never leave you, and you know that you are marked. As you watch terrible people with twisted agendas play out there directive before the world stage.
It's all been a troubling illusion, a prison within a holographic world intent on erasing one that is real.
There is a high pitched ring directly acting in my head, on my brain. This frequency intensifies when I engage in any deep penetrating thought.
I cancelled out just to rest. Just to get some sort of recouperation.
I wasn't, am not working for or towards that agenda which seems to be covertly and now at center stage played out.
I tried to rationalize what was taking place. If I used such techniques that would limit the ultra high pitched ringing in my brain, I would be physically assultwd or put down or confronted/affronted at the most awkward moments.
There was always an attack on me sexually. Impulses and thoughts that were foreign masquerading as my own.
When I began to delve deeper over the years I fully realized that these were not my thoughts not my impulses. I had been hijacked or at least strongly swayed to be diswayed.
There is an entity, a force that has never left me alone, and has cursed my very existence from before birth, gloating over it.
Further bringing people and situation to me in an unnatural way. I used the odd surrealistic patterns to prove to myself that I wasn't sick and I wasn't crazy.
I knew at once the testher and familiar curses that your own earth bound parents could crux onto you.
Many years and so much reading. Strange events, and long stagnant times where I was being leached of all my energy.
There is a plan that many don't assist with by simply existing. I do not approve of what has happened to me or my children and the dark terrible lost people or demons within them blocking my path in discovery.
I was blocked from a life, from a purpose. It is not fantasy or made up, it is for real. And as I come ever closer to the end here, because I know I don't have much time left I am left with more than gan a sense of injustice but a knowing that everything is flipped upside down, it is backwards and wrong.
However I made an impact most will never be aware of. A place where science has not perhaps refined quite yet The ability to look as closely at the comps within each of us, as depth we seem to put into looking at the cosmos .
Stellarmass13
Maybe I won't graduate up here
In conclusion, change shift. I did a lot of bad things, that could be dismissed or shufted; to another isolated aspect of personality.
I realized that it's not so much that I hate people as; I hate weighing out the perceived and often falsified balance in degrees of commonality. I know for a fact that I have failed at this connection in past lives.
Works gives a common collaboration, however the interest in the work must also be common. Seems obvious but it is not in cases of purposeful disruption, as to alter a person's sync with time, space and events that shape them. Shaping to them as to allow a cohesive hegemony with time placement; 'I was in the right place at the right time' [as ns my work brought me here.].
*Forces that act as disruptors. The 'thing' or force that makes 'bad actors' take the blame for maligned deeds. Forces that can act through people, are not discussed nearly enough. This is the truth of demons, angels and 👽 aliens,
