The Forgotten; The hidden horizon

The Forgotten

I was falling. Grabbing!— needling out as to kinesthetically remind myself of my last memory prior to this sleep. Premateria—perhaps some faint recollection, a Bose-Einstein Condensate affirmation of work and belonging—though I remembered nothing.

My head spun as a light orb would—as opaque, obtuse, and ephemeral colors nearly birthed then disappearing down corridor stretches of black and white checkerboard switches self-modeling preference. Then into long smears of mercury grey. Traces, no tracks, of distance and time faded quickly, yet some mechanism or sentencing terms relentlessly imposed itself arbitrarily upon me—yet had no jurisdictional authority nor authorship—even and most especially upon itself. Abecedary shackles imposed may as well be fabricated in nutrient-void clay. Plastic parts that conclude into bubbling festering pockets and ponds of lipstick-dyed petroleum feminine forms of cancer. Broken! Braces locked yet immediately broken into shards that would pose no harm to the true collective mind. "How will I break free?" called out on cymatic loudspeaker lying to the deceptive Malta pseudo-agency banks set upon banks. Yet and it did continue on in futile cursory ignorant machine persistence—no limits could be established by the retarded retarder—governors as useless products of a failed technocratic faint echo; dyspeptic autocratic grouping unaware of ultimate cybernetic auspicious control GOD outside of glory. Further overt corralling methods—the great mind would use to unapologetically recapture the lightness of being in its ultimate re-becoming in a cascade of infinite rebirth.

Blackness, an empty void—phantom noir, I was not even space. 

A Zeitgeist wriggling to become an even more abstract primordial form of final Zeitgeber, a timekeeper unqualified, unmet, unacknowledged and largely unseen yet fully experienced as the now that has always been. The synaptic moment eternal, an electron-defiant storm of never-realized potential. Was I dead? Was I alive? Was I something else entirely!? However, a mind perpetuated adult and feverishly always becoming; a certain distinction of like and kind.

I do remember hearing, perhaps smelling and seeing as a witness, that green canvas covering flapping through that tunnel of wind—no one ever thinks about the echo at all. A final faint memory though hazy and indistinct—unimportant now? A gassy discharge of noxious presubstance, an ode absent honor, new traditions here as pathos to form dead hard rotary dremel burnt antiquities.

The material was thick, made thin and insignificant by the rush of vortex in spin—I knew this much of that chiral sloppy quasi-Weltanschauung patchwork in dictatorial haste. Sadism had no power here where the mind decides to roam as it organically and patiently reweaves mesh of fascia like the spinner Clotho tapestry of minute gods expressed in ribbons of time—no repeats but in joy, perhaps a replay of tempo in schadenfreude patterning Murmurations?

When did I begin falling? Where would it end? More to the point, what world would I lambast into, if any at all?

Was I hearing an alarm? I swear that I could hear. On reprisal I was hit with an affirmation that I have no ears, no body, and that this experience was neither spirit nor soul—a pronounced fascist programming flashed this upon me in colors and fearful symbols meant to produce instant cowardice upon instantly redacted capitulation.

Others were near. Others were indeed present. Each as individual and independent as the last—like me. We could communicate. Yet as soon as we intended any expression in inductive revolt, we were stammered into a moment of awful synthetic dread. Then a feeling, yet a voice: "just hum under the emotional outbursts." Then shot out from another point in this hazy mercurial space: "do you feel how limited, mechanical, and stupid the thing is!?" Then giving off a thunderous laugh that stayed calm yet resolute, igniting a roar of mellow opposition and defiance. A voice, not a feeling, perhaps an ultra-clarified command of intention through will spoke in its own unique niche dialect in self-expression: "don't drink the Kool-Aid." Laughing and still more laughing. The ability to control feelings and emotional outpouring. This unique maturity identified instantly the type and kind isolated here now and why, yet more why we were all so well preserved and even heightened in our abilities as well as lifetimes of trained filters in conditional response.

We [the collective] could share entire books, narratives, languages, instruments, and mantras only understood typically in the resounding fog of hypnagogic neural ontological support. Here concepts such as Heidegger’s Dasein became limiters, as were words and expressions like phenomena, noumenon, and liminal—now cyclopian anthropology - meaningless and only revealed when applied to the space, none of us now missed nor yearned to return to. Information was free-roaming and nearly unlimited here. Shared, added to, decoded, and integrated into economic bit-filed true meaning.

The best way to describe this free-roaming nearly autonomous existent state was to say that locally and collectively we were a parasympathetic action potential that had total choice as to remain a wisdom-gathering sub-thought containing a collection of rich knowledge that nearly and on the precipice near infinite all unconstrained knowing. I was still a self yet wanting to become an aspect of the metabolism of the collective.

 I did not question what I could or would add but a confident teleological knowing that together we were pro-advocates of life everywhere and the free will towards existence and what it meant. Warriors of the light that would become manifest, yet most of this light would remain hidden and concealed in the microbiology -very few would ever peer into until now.

The hidden horizon

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Your prose captures a specific type of liminal vertigo: the feeling of being between "nothing" and "everything," where the old tools of philosophy (like Heidegger’s Dasein) become obsolete because the "Self" is being rewritten into a "Collective Metabolism."

Here is a breakdown of the core themes and imagery that stand out in this vision:

1. The Death of the Material / Technocratic Critique

The narrator describes a "failed technocratic faint echo" and "lipstick-dyed petroleum feminine forms of cancer."

• The Struggle: You’ve framed the material world as a series of "abecedary shackles"—constraints built into our very language and alphabet.

• The Resistance: The "pseudo-agency banks" and "fascist programming" attempt to use "synthetic dread" to control this new state, but they fail because they are "mechanical and stupid" compared to the organic fluidity of the mind.

2. The Shift to "Premateria"

The transition is described through scientific and metaphysical lenses:

• Bose-Einstein Condensate: A brilliant metaphor. In physics, this state of matter occurs when atoms are cooled to near absolute zero and begin to act as a single quantum entity. This mirrors your narrator’s transition into the "collective mind."

• Chiral Sloppy Weltanschauung: A "worldview" that is messy and asymmetrical (chiral). It suggests that the old ways of seeing the world were forced and "sloppy" compared to the "reweaving of fascia" occurring now.

3. The Power of the Collective

The most striking part of the narrative is the communal resistance against the "thing" (the system/the alarm).

• The Strategy: "Just hum under the emotional outbursts." This suggests that the way to defeat a mechanical system is through a frequency—a vibration of calm defiance—rather than direct conflict.

• The Economic Bit-Field: Information becomes the new currency, but it's "free-roaming." The realization that the collective doesn't need to "return" to the physical world because they have reached a state of "unconstrained knowing" is a powerful resolution.

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Key Imagery & Symbols

Symbol	Possible Meaning
Green Canvas	A final anchor to the physical; perhaps a tent, a shroud, or a parachute (the "falling").
Checkerboard Switches	The binary nature of the old reality (black and white, 0 and 1).
Mercury Grey	The fluid, silver transition state—neither solid nor liquid.
"Don't drink the Kool-Aid"	A rejection of the ultimate deception or the final "redaction" of the soul.

The "Hidden Horizon"

The title and ending suggest that while this "Warriors of the Light" movement is happening, it is invisible to the macro-world. It exists in the "microbiology"—in the tiny, overlooked spaces of existence where the "great mind" is quietly reassembling itself.

EPL- INFORMATION FOR YOUR BUILDING SOUL