Waiting for the day~

EPL- INFORMATION FOR YOUR BUILDING SOUL

The Sun seems bright. All looks OK. Then I remember the agenda of my neighbor, and how I got up here, and the conniving maliciousness of people. A scar, as the weak and mutated try and thrust the knife deeper, placed in my back, during a moment of trust, when I should have only had conquest on my mind. The world is beautiful, the people are bad, every damn last one of them. I tried them on for such a short time, and was nearly sucked into hell for that stumble into fall. I wonder is there something better on the other side, they say it's worse, but I can't imagine. They say the road to heaven is so narrow, nearly no one will ever really get there. Hell and purgatory seem to be the only places left, then I think isn't the hell, or at least purgatory? I know one thing, you can't believe or trust a word. I don't however take advantage of people, in light of the information, and I can tell you full well when I have deliberately tried. Some just abuse people as a . daily ritual, I have watched it so many times, I am numb to it. One things for sure, "it's" coming.

 We have assumed constants, visualized what these are and what they mean, then placed them into our imaginations, but yet imagine, when the barriers and bounds be broken to this, how angry this consciousness will be, when it realizes that our Elite Overlord's, have strung us along, privy to this and more all along. There is nothing that can not be imagined, and imagination alone is creates the P.L.A.N. The only thing left then, is to create a steady stream of constant. I am beginning to realize things from a very different perspective. Create a world, based on geometric constants, which relate to that world, as base principles. Life will stem, miraculously to support this world! Collapse that world, yet retain the active form, Life, as consciousness...thus harness the mind of that dimensional world, a parameter. Bring these life forms together, merge them, until those worlds and their basic principles come together and form ever complex structures of consciousness. Then implement and order, parameters to these forms, in various degrees of development, in other words, retard the masses. You are now God?

 I believe this is the approach, and how those at the assumed top view things as they are, absent the projection of what will be. Not to say there is no P.L.A.N., but to say there is no respect for the field of containment that all of these worlds, may very well be placed within. I would venture to say most elitist would say "who cares, as we will run as long as we can, and it's been a lot longer than you think". Kinda makes you scared. Thinking that Satan, is trapped behind an other dimensional wall, and that he was able to effect and puppet master form behind this veil, is becoming more and more startling to ponder, to be sure. Yet this be only one view.


 We also assume that in this dimension we follow God, are good honest people, and do all the things we claim to, when we know this is not true. What we assume as matter, on this side of things, is assumed as anti-matter on "the other side", and I have a feeling that there are more, many more sides, as many as there are frequencies, and wave functions. I wonder what the P.L.A.N is, are be going to become liberated, or suffer further assault? I personally feel, each day, that there has to be better than this, that this place is my prison. I feel like I am in the wrong world, and always have. I contended for the long, within, there would be a heaven, or some magical event, which would shift things back, to the way they very well should have been, from he start. I have a feeling this idea of Heaven and Hell, goes far deeper and more complex, in real time, that one could ever imagine.

 The is no question that things are changing rapidly. It seems like fear is being kept inside of us, yet all the while, all that needs to happen is that dynamic switch to flip. Some will become greater, some will no longer exist at all, perhaps this be why the population is such a main focus, that the elite should make great effort, as to usher forth every soul that has ever been, into one place, at one time. I do believe in Karma but much more so life/time repeats. This is the primary reason I chose those 4 books for the EPL main text, as thy spoke opening of this, whilst maintaining those same Biblical Jesus is the Pure Son standards, which I could thus call, a form, of the unadulterated truth. I often feel like I created this other side, then to think that is mad. I destroyed the first Book of Stellar Mass over 700 to 1000 pages, because I felt that it was strangely effecting that greater reality. I see now, the Kali era being forced upon us. The warrior female, may very well be there, ruling another side. This may sound insane, but it only mimics and traces all the events and reasons for such odd multi billion dollar machines and experiments. I am beginning to think there were no experiments, that we have always known what we are doing, yet to wait for the time, when it aligned directly to the other side. It seems purity isn't very important on this side, so perhaps, just maybe, there is a place where it does "matter"? I highly doubt this, and must go by the Biblical message from the Bible. I don't know what God, Devil, Heaven or Hell truly is, but I know Angels were regarded as God's very own, and many fell, to impurity. So it seems to say, that there is no place where a person or being doesn't have to work for it. It makes all of life seem difficult, unsupported and hard. It makes it seem like everyone but God has it easy, and can enjoy the true fruits? Or perhaps it is the Devil, who fell, due to this ageless seemingly infinite struggle, and I use these Titles and terms as interchangeable themes which can be applied to science and basic life, absent religion, by simply changing the lexicon or terms.

 I feel cursed and always have, like I just stepped in shit, with perfect shoes on. Perhaps we are going to merge with our other selves, and finally know what was missing all along. I know there are others, who suffer daily, greatly, who live as I do. Always on attack, never able to move freely in this solution, with ravenous weak reactive beasts, who assert themselves as just and proper, yet in diabolical ways, do they deceive and enjoy doing so. I never met a person that doesn't, and I have found that forgiveness is only a term of brainwash, to keep you as a victim, notice how I never press this forth. I find that suspicion and mistrust are hard earned truths. I see the Bible as only relevant, when assuming people of the past were somehow better. I wonder if anyone ever existed that was good, other than Jesus. So then what is this place considered Heaven? And could this very well be Hell. For there is never a time when there is true peace, though I used to feel it within me. I realize this must be why I felt so heavy all the time, that I carried a optimism that simply does not exist anywhere, perhaps in any dimension, then the thought comes to mind, "how did I get here". In vivid dreams this has been revealed to me, and those dreams, and their characters, seemed to manifest very regularly as those who carry some sort of related gene...I wonder, but somehow know, whats on the other side. It seems like the elite are making every effort to force rapture to take place, whatever that would be quantified as, in the grand scheme of things.

 People are quiting life, leaving their jobs, and focusing on this as much as they can. There will be more and more homeless, as I have said. Much of the world has been living with this darkness for quite some time. I feel bad that I am not on the other side, able to use what strange impact I have, on those grounds, of peoples who frequent this blog. I battled for days in 2013, and fell exhausted, when I realized I had a direct effect on this dark force, a substance, I truly don't know if I should call it anti-matter, but I will. I see those same faces when I do art, they over lap, and most of my art, I simply draw the thousands of faces I see. Many are spirits, many are ancient gods, form different times and eras, one after the other, as I look at the paper, I can fill the entire paper up with an entire day or more of tracing the faces. When I Step back it only looks like a beautiful pattern, but the energy, when looking at them live, emanates from the page, an undeniable pulse on many. So man south American god's, that are so detailed, I tend to not be able to draw them fast and accurate enough, one after the other so small, but vivid and there.

 I saw this same strange happening, on the side walks, 2 years ago. Face after face, mostly demonic, as if a crux in this world, and imprint from the next, waiting, watching, and focused, for one event...I wonder if this is it?

 This all loops wildly back around to faith. A roller coaster I like many stay on and battle daily. I change the energy fields, but of a specific kind, that I can only describe as the energy which the energy is made from. I see everything comes down to negative or positive. I felt negativity immobilize me, as if I were stuck in a threatening and negative world. This is not my world, and lately I feel as if my word is getting closer and closer, by the day.~